This month, I entered the 28th cycle of the sun. The year of 27th, I had a drastic change in my life. I encountered a new environment, people, responsibilities, and opportunities. It’s almost like the universe shifted underneath where I was standing. In the unknown current of the ocean, I was trying to find the calm wave to put myself together.
Entering 2024, There were many fresh experiences. I was fortunate to find the support and exciting opportunities. Started to feel the tide and let it flow inside of me.
In January, I performed my solo, “The Discipline Body” at Red Eye Theater in Minneapolis. I was a part of the work-in-progress sharing called “Tiger Balm.” This was my first time sharing my work in the Minnesota dance community, which was super exciting! “The Discipline Body” examines how one’s culture shapes the body to regulate one’s behavior in public space. It is inspired by the Japanese educational system that teaches students to behave “appropriately.” This performance was an autobiographic reflection of unfolding the embodiment of the education system through my body. The great thing about the showing was the feedback session. I was able to hear from the audience their sensations and questions that arose from viewing.
This is the video recording from Tiger Balms (work-in-progress sharing) at Red Eye Theater, Minneapolis MN.
Another experience I valued was participating in the ACDA (American College Dance Alliance) in the North Central region. This year was held in St.Olf College. I taught Introduction to Dance Film, which introduces students to dance-making from different angles and viewpoints by using the camera. Instant composition was a fruitful experience to see students’ creativity and playfulness. Also, I brought my dance piece from the Fall Faculty Concert, “Can I See You on the Other Side.” Calling the lighting cue and watching my choreography from the lighting booth was a new experience for me. Overall, it was a great opportunity to introduce myself to the regional institutions, and seeing students learning, performing, and connecting with the dance community was a treat to me as a dance educator.
Concluding the academic year of 2023-2024, we had “Carmina Burana” to celebrate the new departure as the Performing Arts Department of Minnesota State University Mankato. “Carmina Burana” is composed by Carl Orff, inspired by Latin songs of the circle of life. We fused live dance, chorus, and orchestra. I participated in this huge production as a choreographer. Embodying the strong introduction of this opera was very exciting and scary at the same time. I normally don’t work with classical music, so generating the materials was based on the theme and story of the opera, which was a fun experience to collaborate with my talented students. Also, composing the movement ideas into the big casts was a good challenge for me. I had 19 casts in one section, and moving the stage with that amount of movers was spectacular. It was quite an experience to work with live musicians and singers as well as theater technicians to put on this production. I am looking forward to having more collaboration beyond the disciplines in the future.
Photo: Dan Norman
Without the huge wave hitting at me, I am centering myself during the summer. More fresh experiences to come in the future. To prepare for the new wave, I am practicing letting go of judgment, expectations, and assumptions, and starting the conversation with open-ended questions. How to allow myself to be always open and available to the world? This is a difficult task, but I would like to practice every day. I am welcoming the new circle of life.
It’s already at the end the end of the year 2023. What a year of CHANGE! Since graduation, my life has hugely shifted. I felt like I almost lived two lives in a year, the first half as a graduate student and the other half as a dance faculty.
After I graduated from Ohio State University in May, I moved to Mankato, Minnesota, where I started as an assistant professor in Dance at the Department of Performing Arts. Learning new theater and dance department ecosystem, adjusting the new school schedule as a faculty, adopting the cold Minnesota weather… All happened in less than five months. It was a huge learning curve to be an instructor of college-level movement courses with various students, not only dance major students but also Theater students and dance minor students with different movement backgrounds. I aim to offer a class where students can feel safe to be curious, explore, and deeply listen to their bodies and internal desire to dance. Ultimately, I want my students to look forward to taking classes. I wanted to write it down here to remind myself of the future -Where I started and what dance educator I want to strive to become.
Photos from the Fall Dance Concert 2023
I also would like to mention some of the choreographic projects I participated in this year. I was honored to be chosen as a dance artist to perform outside of the school system. Yujie Chen and I performed “Motion of Seeing” at the Detroit Dance City Festival in September. This piece we created was the second iteration of “Body Negative” and it expanded the idea of mobility in seeing the performance. I also deepened my choreography to think about how BIPOC artists deal with cultural representation. We received the National Exchange Award. Even though I am still in search of my artistic voice, such rewarding to share and recognize dance works that My collaborator and I put the effort into.
Photos from the performance, “Motion of Seeing” at the Detroit Dance City Festival
Another chance that I could explore my artistry was through dance filmmaking. I was fortunate to be part of the project, Dance for Diversity. Dance for Diversity was founded by Elizabeth Roskph and envisioned to amplify visibility and create a platform for BIPOC Artists to center their unique voices and their stories through their art while fostering a place of belonging and reclamation of their true identities. I had the privilege to collaborate with the videographer, Rachel Malhorn. I had an idea of visualizing in-betweenness that I experienced as a first-generation immigrant. I wanted to showcase the acknowledging upbringing and how we adopted, changed, and merged our living experiences in different cultures to live in the U.S. For 4 months, we had great communication back and forth to discuss creative direction. We filmed all the materials in Milwaukee WI in 2 days and assembled the film. The level of understanding and trust made us create a dance film, 藍 (Ai).
Photos from Dance for Diversity, at the Film Series Premiere
I want to conclude this post with appreciation and hope. The job and many choreographic projects that I participated in were extensions of what have learned and inserted in working with during my graduate time. This year gave me confidence and autonomy in what I want to do. I hope to expand and grow more in 2024.
It has been a while since I present my thesis project. However, I would like to reflect before I move on to the next stage of my life. My thesis project, “we carry to depart” was premiered in February 2023 at Barnett Theater at the Ohio State University. The creative process took me almost a year and a half to complete. The journey felt really long but super short at the same time.
My research interests started from a simple question, “How do we define ourselves?” There is a past that shaped us that reflects who we are yet it will not define who we are. For example, I grew up in Tokyo, Japan. The fact that I was born and lived there constitutes how I see the world in a certain way. However, it does not mean that it 100% defines a current me, who studied dance in the U.S. for 7 years and has absorbed various cultures. It is part of who I am.
As a dance artist, during this whole three years of the MFA program, I was in the endeavor of looking for “who truly I am” and what is my “authentic” artistic voice that represents Yukina Sato. I came to the graduate program straight from the bachelor program. It is a rare pathway for people pursuing a career as a dancer. However, this opportunity gave me a place and time to test, fail, explore, and seek what I really want to do.
The key term here is authenticity.I viewed and investigated myself from both outside and inside. From the external point of view, I questioned how I am perceived by others. What community do I belong to? How society defines people in categories, called identity. From the internal view, I asked what shaped me into who I am. Is it the people around me, the space I live in, my nationality, or my body?
Also, dance is tangible but intangible in a way. It requires the physical ability and duration of time to describe intangible things. Always battling with time and ideas. If you exist in the dance industry where so many people have tried and executed various amazing ideas and creative approaches, what you can do? What makes you absolutely unique? How you are in conversation with the past, current, and future?
The thing never changes where I go, and who I am interacted with, are my mind and body. The accumulative experience and memories are stored in the mind and they are unfolded by the body. How do we unpack this complexity of self through body movement? For me, the process of accumulating was unconscious. Therefore, it took me a long time to unfold them.
In my second year, I focused on my present self and created the practice of “body-doodling.” Every day, I took time only 1-2mins to log the location, time, and sensation. And I created a short phrase inspired by the daily record. So if you do it for 7 days, it creates 7 phrases. The practice of dailiness of making and tuning into my mind and body. One example was
Shaky legs Hugging the void Pacing fast Lost the sound of shoes Scared to go out in the lights I wasn’t full
Then I also invited 5 dancers with me to try the same exercise. My interest was to examine the various perspective on archiving themselves every day. Also, questioned how to log ourselves daily to trace the change consciously.
This practice informed me to move on to the next step. During the daily log, the most impactful part for me was where I reside in my body. If I was laying on the grass or sitting on the dining chair… where my body created very different sensations, emotions, and thoughts. It could be I would be in the space because I had to do so and so that day, however even though I did have control over my schedule, my body was affected by the “space”.
I have talked a lot about “space” in the last blog post. For my thesis project, I focused on the physical space such as a classroom, a city, and a living room in the house. Especially I deeply searched the location I grew up. In December 2022, I had a chance to be able to back to my hometown after three years since COVID-19 hit. I felt the hometown was no longer what I remembered. Everything looked, heard, and sensed new to me. I visited many places that were memorable to me and videotaped the locations. Also, I recorded many soundscapes. These files created a distinct outline of the piece.
In the last year of my MFA program, I was super fortunate to have 6 dancers with me to play and experiment together. Some dancers had been working with me for two years! They were willing to be with me ups and downs. I was immobile due to my knee surgery in Autumn 2022, so it was really difficult to know exactly what I want during the rehearsal time. I asked dancers to try many prompts and improvisations. I sometimes lost in experiments or composition, not liking what I suggest, finding interesting movements, or back to scratch. (*I don’t think not many artists don’t disclose how rough the creative process can be — Just a thought…)
The piece starts at the train station. There is a video of a train departing playing in roop in the background. A dancer, Aya Venet sits on the bench, waiting for the train. “ガタン、ゴトン…(the sound of the train moving)” Then the backdrop video infuses more video clips at the stations and crossing in Tokyo while more dancers start to walking across the stage. When all five dancers sit on tiny benches, there start pushing each other to claim their own spot on the tiny bench. Transitioning the train station to my hometown, where many waves of people walk directly to their destination. The kinetic energy of urban life was embodied by five dancers through simple walking back and forth between two benches. The synchronous sound of feet, non-stop walking back and forth, and direct and intense focus was formed by the walk.
A dancer, Yitong Chen disturbed this established system by walking across the dancers. Yitong’s movement sparks on the stage, shouting “1, 2, 3, 4!” and transferring their energy to others. All the movement was extracted from the so-called box phrase. The number 1,2,3,4 is the surfaces or directions of dancers’ orientation on the stage. And specific number is in relation to specific memories with family members. Their movement becomes bigger and travels across the stage. More spreading their range of movement and suddenly a dancer, Rani Bawa, who only keeps walking shouts the frustration, “AHHHHHHHHH!!!” The frustration comes out from being alienated from the group. This section represents how people establish the system and the reality of whether some can adopt it and or not. Her shout transitions the scene to the physical space created by two benches, representing Japan and the U.S. Dancers leap over and push and pull them, and the distance between benches gets closer and closer and makes them blend into one long bench. Then, dancers transform benches and create many different spaces such as a slider at the schoolyard, a hiking trail, a dining table in the kitchen, and lastly a small closet, where I hid many internal emotions, trauma, and thoughts.
Coming out of the closet segways to my solo. I travel across diagnose from the left corner to the right corner. Each movement represents specific life events and memories from the day I landed in Oklahoma till the current moment. When I reached the right corner, two dancers, Kara Philoon and Aya Venet enter the stage. Their duet consists of many weight shifts. They represent the relationship between mother and daughter. The mother supports the daughter but eventually, the daughter has to leave the mother and move forward without her. I incorporated my experience of recovering from a knee injury as a method of slowing myself down to reflect on my relationship with people around me and myself. The rock music start kicks in and as the duet finishing, I am blasting the energy on the stage. Throw my body out, kicks and turn, flipping my arms around… it is the internal pain and acceptance of what I become. The dancers observed me from a distance on the stage. I slow down the movement to take out the knee pads and give a piece of them to each dancer. The knee pad stands for my shed skin, a part of my body. I give a piece of myself to my dancers as members of the collective identity we created throughout the piece.
The last unison showcases my movement vocabulary which consists of influence by six dancers and what I have been trained and learned. It is a mixture of the past and the embodiment of the current self. And all dancers drifted away from the right corner to the left corner leaving me alone on the stage. They carry each other to leave me behind. The last scene cites the very beginning. I stand in the same spot that Aya was sitting down and rephrase her movement in different ways how we create the space and how I leave the past behind, how I carry forward and depart to the new chapter of my life.
This piece is the creative process and archive at the same time. I feel like it made me realize the power of dance-making and how I want to embody my vision as a member of the human race.
Time is an interesting element of life. Everyone has 24 hours a day, but depends on your situation, you feel and experience it at a totally different time speed.
I thought a lot about time during the quarantine. Society seemed to stop or slow down when the pandemic hit. Each day felt dragged out and tried to fill the emptiness at first. However each day my schedule was fluid. I could do whatever I wanted to with no time limitations. With this freedom, I was able to try new things and explore many possibilities.
Now I am in a graduate program, and my daily schedule looks completely different. From morning until night, my schedule revolves around my classes, appointments, meetings, get resources at the library, and teaching Japanese in the breaks between everything. Now more than ever, I realize the importance of time management and the effect it has on one’s future.
Speaking of time, I recently committed to stay and film myself for 12 hours at the riverside. It was for one of the assigned prompt “durational work” for the Choreography Workshop course. I would like everyone to check my video before reading my story at the riverside. –> https://vimeo.com/463212300 The process was almost like therapy to me. My initial idea for this piece was that I commit to being somewhere for 12 hours from sunrise to sunset and I move the exact same way and shoot myself every 30 minutes. The piece is not about me, about the time passing around me. I am part of the narrative.
I woke up at 6:30 am and biked to the riverside. I found the perfect place on my way to Laura’s rehearsal at the Chadwick Arboretum (I will write about her project later. It has been an amazing journey!) Set up the tripod, check the time constantly, and the angle of the camera. Started film when the clock hits 7:30 am. Every 30 minutes, I get up, move, and film. It was very simple. The same simpleness that I had during the quarantine.
In the morning, the sun had not yet and it was cold. The only I could hear was the wave of the water. Everything around me felt as if it were still asleep. I felt all my senses were awakened. I could hear the birds swimming, feel the brisk morning air coming off the river, see the sky brighten up from blue to purple to orange. All the changes I witnessed were beautiful. The higher the sun was up, the more people and birds visited the river, cars, and airplanes passed by, and the bugs flew around. I could tell the town woke up from sleep.
Sitting at the riverside for this long period, I was expected to be exhausting. However, surprisingly, I was not. This 30 minutes check-in was helping me to keep my time tracking and it was a consistent indicator of my time at the river. Some of the 30 minutes slots, I was very productive and able to finished some of my assignments from dance film class, research class, and composition class even though I did not have access to the internet, and some of them I just observed birds. There were ducks, geese, great egrets living at the river. As time passed, they swam super close to me and looked at me like “what is this human doing for so long at our territory?” Especially ducks were friendly and their curiosity and my curiosity seemed matched. Super fun imitating their neck movement and made eye contact.
I finished at 7:30 pm. Overall, I shot 25 clips of me moving for 12 hours. The sun is completely out and just the sound of the crickets echoing at the river. The night wind blew to my face and I was satisfied with the accomplishment of being at the riverside for 12 hours.
I went back home and started editing and I noticed that my labor at the riverside and the final product does not have equal quality. It looked choppy when I put together all the clips. I was disappointed. It was my fault not to study enough of filming to capture the progress of time, but I did not want to shoot in timelapse which I thought ruined my movement. I learned that it is great to do all the options first then choose what is the most appropriate to use in the piece. I could not quite express how much I put my effort to be at the riverside for 12 hours in the film, yet sum up my 12 hours into 2 minutes was meaningful and worthwhile to record as my creative process.
The tree leaves are changing to vivid red, orange, yellow, and getting colder in Columbus. It’s been already 6 weeks since I have started my graduate program! I cannot believe how fast the time past. Compared to the quarantine time, I appreciated that I could spend time at a new place and be exposed to new perspectives every day. I learn so much these past weeks.
Looking back these 6 weeks, this feeling of Homesickness keeps washing over me every so often. Compared to the experiences between leaving parents to come to the U.S. and leaving Oklahoma to start school in Ohio, I felt more difficult adjusting in the latter. It might be affected by this current weirdness under the pandemic, though homesickness is not determined by the physical distance. It surprised me. I have been more sensitive to the detail surrounding me such as weather, the sound of the wind, beer cans on the street, people’s laugh outside of my apartment. And re-examining what I miss, like, dislike, and where I feel the most comfortable.
This adjusting to a new place made me think “where is my home?” In my definition of home is a safe, comfortable, vulnerable place. However, is its physical location like the house where I grew up? the intimacy that I have with my husband? the passion or something I love to do in my life?…. There are so many questions I have and this is what I will investigate in my research.
2weeks ago, I completed my first project of the Choreography Workshop Course (Woo-hooooo!!) Next, we will take a look behind the scene of this project, so if you have not seen it, please checked it out at the link below. https://vimeo.com/460652109
I titled this piece, “Living inside the grid” which was inspired by the zoom screen. Since I am taking many classes on zoom, I noticed that in this grid system, it is hard to concentrate and connect with my classmates. I wanted to shape this unnatural rectangle-shaped world. Me trying to be creative, I started looking around rectangle shapes other than my laptop screen. I had many photo frames in different sizes (initially, I bought a bunch of them for my living room decoration) and a wired coffee table that has a square hole in the middle.
At first, I started to play around with photo frames. I set up all my frames standing up on the floor with different distances from the camera to create the depth and space to move around. Ended up knocking down the frames while I was dancing so, I changed the plan to hang them from the ceiling which I have more freedom in between the frames. In a zoom class, there is a weird private territory due to the lack of physical constraint. The only place you have to be presentable is inside of the frame. This idea is connected to my movement and the costume choice. As for the movement, I generate the materials from improvisation. Portraying the flatness, linear, stifling space with and within the frames. And I married some recurring motifs, trying to go away from the frame to breathe in the air, making a frame with my hand. Then, I added on the coffee table to make another layer of this piece. I taped the black blank paper on the hole and tried to rip it and break through it. (which it required so much power haha) It took me to do some practices before I shoot since the paper was super strong! Indeed, I had to stab a pencil to make a hole to put my finger through.
The process of making this piece was crafty and fun exploring the possibility of the daily object in my apartment into the creation. One time, I heard that the limitation stimulates creativity and it was true. I experienced through my first project. The new month is coming. I will keep investigating, exploring, challenging, and creating. The next goal is to make durational work.
Yukina Sato 